Back to Nashville for surgery

Journal entry: Sept 26, 2007

I'm in Memphis driving back to Nashville with my sister Heidi, who is here for 1 month to take care of me.

Surgery is tomorrow! Wow, what a wild 2 weeks!

Monday was a real test of faith day. Cassandra with the Finance Dept at Baptist Hospital called me. She said the surgery would be denied because I didn't have insurance or any way to pay for my surgery.

My heart raced and my head swam with doubts and fears and anxiety!

I called Dr Hampf's office (my surgeon) and talked to Cynthia, who didn't understand the problem, since they had worked all of that out with the hospital before I left Nashville the first time. She would call the Finance people at the hospital.

I felt I had done everything I could do. And now it was out of my control. So I sat outside at noon until 2:00pm. Just reminding myself all God had done, how He led me to Nashville, to Michelle's, to the Hospital, to the Surgeon, EVERYTHING He had done for me to get this surgery. He wasn't now going to abandon me.

I no more walked back into my apartment when Cassandra called me back to say, "The surgery is ON!!!!"

Later I talked to Michelle, and said how I can trust God with everything EXCEPT my finances. And we both KNEW this was a lesson God was trying to teach me now.

The surgery is tomorrow! There is no fear in my heart. I am not worried about it. God, you have laid the pavers and I am just following them step by step.